I’ll keep this short.

I’m back on anti-depressants, and it’s going to be a couple days before I feel like posting again (I think). My little experiment of quitting Lexapro went about as well as [insert witty analogy here that my brain’s too tired to make].

I made the decision to start on them again a week ago. My doctor, my shrink, my neurologist, and I all agreed that it was the Right Thing to Do. I hate being on a pill, but I had been having multiple anxiety attacks every day for the past month, and that’s just a bit too much for me to handle while also trying to do my job.

This time, I’m going on Zoloft. I’ve taken it before, and it worked wonders, but the ramp-up period is even worse than the one for Lexapro. If you’re unfamiliar with SSRIs and the “ramp-up” then I’ll put it simply: during the first week or two, you’re lucky if you don’t just go completely bonkers. Today, for example, I went from feeling fantastic to suicidal to ragingly angry to depressed as hell to placid (in placid right now). Mood swings like this aren’t uncommon while starting an SSRI like Zoloft (or Lexapro/Prozac/etc.). Doesn’t make it any easier, though.

The reason I’m not going to post is that I don’t feel I’m in the proper state of mind. I wrote a post earlier, and it was just angry. I don’t want to leave something like that lying around. None of you deserve to read something as angry as that, either. I appreciate how many people stop by to read this crap, and I ought to be a little more careful. Pissing people off left and right isn’t a good way to go about things, and it’s particularly lame when it’s mostly the result of a drug-induced mood swing.

I also can’t seem to say the right thing to anybody today. I’ve been inadvertently insulting (as opposed to my usual, intentionally insulting self), and generally just not very charming.

Ho hum. These things happen.

Anyway, have a good weekend, people. I’m going to spend mine under the covers, hiding from myself until the meds stabilize in my system. When I come out, I things will be good again.

If anything interesting happens, then let me know.

Thanks,

– Rory